. . . and I’m feeling a little better about the whole “my baby is growing up and soon he’ll leave me” thing.

Mostly because he’s turning into the funniest, most wonderful little person.

The other day James worked his way into the bathroom as Paul was having a bath.  Without tubby toys, if you can imagine.  So James pulled out his little bath boat and handed it to Paul, who told him he really didn’t need it.  So James found his “Barnyard Bathtime” book for him.  After reading to his Daddy, he took the facecloth and started washing him!

I just want to cuddle him thinking of it.

Not to mention he offers me a bite of everything he’s eating.

Also, he’s brilliant.  He is!  I caught him in the bathroom (Again.  He likes it in there) and he was at the toilet (Again.)  He had his little potty seat up on it and I told him off for playing in the bathroom.  Seconds later he had a dirty diaper!  He was TRYING to use the potty!  On his own!  At one year old!  And I didn’t realise, bad mama that I am :p

My baby boy is turning one tomorrow and I’ve been sobbing on and off all evening.

I feel silly.  He’s a healthy, happy, perfect little boy.  I couldn’t possibly ask for a more wonderful child.  But he’s growing up so fast and I just want time to slow down.  I want to wake him up and cuddle him, savouring the last few hours of babyhood.  I want to hold his warm, snuggly little self and gaze into his gray eyes, adoring him, loving him.

I dread to think all the terrible things that might happen to him in his life.  I want him to be as happy and loved as he is now, always.  I don’t want his heart broken, I don’t want him to get sick.  I don’t want him to have his feelings hurt, for that sweet, trusting smile to leave his face.

Oh, I know I should be looking forward to all the wonderful things his life will bring.  Maybe that will come tomorrow.  But tonight all I can do is cry, cry, cry.

Eddie is watching James with increasing concern these days.  James has always loved his kitty, but now, James can get to the kitty on his own and he moves FAST!  Up until today he’s mostly been pulling himself across the floor with his arms, but he’s getting better and better at crawling.  Today he’s hardly crept at all, and has managed to follow me from the kitchen to the living room on his hands and knees!  Yay, James!

He’s pulling himself up on everything now too, including the couch that has been Ed’s baby free haven.  Poor kitty.  James hasn’t been happier though!  He can get to everything – nintendos, garbage cans, kitty food and fur!  What’s not to love!

I bought a baby gate yesterday (and am all proud to have installed it myself – with the drill!) so now Ed is learning to jump over and find a safe place to sleep.  James follows him that far and then stands hanging on to the gate while Eddie curls up on the boot mat to have a little nap.

My baby boy is six months old today!!  I can’t believe it, I can harldy believe he’s here already, let alone halfway to his first birthday!  I’m so ridiculously proud of him.  I love it when people stop to say hi to him and he grins at them.  I also love it when he frowns at them.  I love telling people his lovely grown-up name and I love telling them how young he is, and seeing their looks of surprise because he looks sooo much bigger and is super strong.

I’m bragging, I know.  That’s what proud mommies do, right?

He tried fruit for the first time today.  Well, aside from prunes, but they were an emergency!  He had apples grown from my Grandma’s trees.  I think the puree is yuuuuummy, and I think he liked it too, but found it a bit tart.  He licked and smacked his lips and then gave a little shiver and opened for more!  We found barley cereal today too, so he can try that in a week or two.  I just love giving him new foods, it’s so much fun to see his reactions!


James has learned a new skill – to scream when he is upset!

Can’t have mommy’s playing cards?  SCREAM!  Can’t have the remote?  SCREAM!  No coffee?  wine?  Can’t bite the kitty?  SCREAAAM!

Then he gets distracted and it’s blah, la, la, haaa!  He’s babbling so much more in the last few days, today when I tried to feed him, I swear to you he said “yeuch!”

Funny baby 🙂

Also, we bought his big boy car seat (shh!  It’s his Christmas gift!)  A Britax Boulevard and it is spectacular. I’m so in love with it, I hope he likes it too!  It cost us an insane $350, but he’ll be in a 5-point harness until he’s 65 pounds, so it’s totally worth it.  Besides, with all the 12 hour car trips we do, he needs a comfy place to plunk his little bum!  The only sad thing is, it doesn’t come in cowmooflage, like the Marathon does.

Wow, I’m excited about a car seat.  What have I become?

Me and My First Baby!

1. Were you married at the time? Yes, we were married almost three years when he was born (had to wait for permanent contract, ya know!)

2. What were your reactions when you found out you were pregnant? We’d been trying for six months, so I was relieved and a bit numb honestly!  After about 30 seconds I was thrilled though!

3. How old were you?27

4. How did you find out you were pregnant? I had bought a test beforehand, just in case.  (We live far away from anything, so I wasn’t taking a special trip to the city for a pregnancy test!)  My period was a day or two late, but I felt crampy like it was coming.  I tested anyway and there was a big + almost instantly!

5. Who did you tell first? I woke Paul up to tell him.  (It was 7:00.  On a Saturday.  I had to pee!)  Then I managed to hold on to about 9:00 to call my parents – who I also woke up!

6. Did you want to find out the sex? No.  But once we were at the Ultrasound and the tech knew, I HAD to know!

7. Due date: May 7th

8. Did you deliver early or late? Late.  I was scheduled for an induction two days after he was actually born.

9. Did you have morning sickness? No!  I was only very very tired.  Eggs made me feel a bit queasy.  Anything greasy did, really.  But I was fine!

10. What did you crave? Nothing much.  I was crazy thirsty and I drank lots of juice.  You can only have so much water!  And I ate lots of fruit, too!

11. Who irritated you the most? Um.  I’d tell you but it would be “unprofessional”

12. What was your first child’s sex? Male.

13. How many pounds did you gain throughout the pregnancy? 30.  I gained like 5 in the last month, I nearly fell off the scale when I saw!

14. Did you have any complications during your pregnancy? INot even the tiniest one.  I was so lucky!

15. Where did you give birth? The QEII in Grande Prairie

16. How many hours were you in labor? Well.  My water broke Saturday morning (sort of Friday night, actually, but properly on the Saturday)  We went to the hospital and waited a day for contractions to start.  Sunday I got the induction buffet, nothing worked.  Monday the buffet continued.  Finally around noon something kicked in.  I had what I now know are mild contractions for about 3 1/2 hours, until I went to 3 cm.  Then I went to 10 in 1 1/2 hours.  That hurt. So active labour 1 1/2 hours.  From the time my water broke – nearly 60.  But most of that time I was sitting there thinking “is this it???”

17. Who drove you to the hospital? Paul did.

18. Who watched? Just Paul.  My family is far away and I think one person is plenty!  Besides, he did a great job 🙂

19. Was it vaginal or c-section? vaginal

20. Did you take medicine to ease the pain? I got morphine and gravol.  Not particularly helpful, but I think I went a lot faster than they expected, and they were waiting for near the end!

21. How much did your child weigh? 8lbs 15ounces.  “One big poop short of 9 lbs” they told me.

22. What did you name him/her? James Martin.  After my Daddy.  It took us forever to decide, and I was convinced I wanted him to be Oliver or Lucas, but he didn’t look like either.  That’ll be #2 aand #3 I guess!

23. How old is your first born today? 4 1/2 months.  He’s such a big boy now 😦